Why, that’s all I ask myself. The love of my life just walked out, and it feels more like death than anything. I Know I’ve made a mistake and I’m getting judged on it. It kinda hurts. I don’t care what anyone else thinks or says about me. The one person that always stood by me was you. And now that you’re gone I can’t take it. I Can’t stop crying. I honestly feel like someone close to me has died. I never intended for it to happen. I would never want that. I’m gonna sit up every night asking will you text me? Do you think about me? Do you love me? Will you always love me? I’m not the type of person to write a 12 page letter, but I have no one to turn too. You may think I have all these boys but in reality, I have none. I really don’t want anyone else, and I Know I won’t for a long time. I Know where my heart belongs and that’s w/ yours. But I gotta face the music and admit to myself you moved on. God would I give the world for something different right now. I’ll smile everyday, act like nothing’s wrong, come home lay in my bed at night and just cry till I fall asleep. Being in love is the hardest part of life, especially when you’re head over heals too. Nothin has ever felt quite like this before. And I hate it. Yeah, I believe there is other people out there, but I know I don’t want that. Crying doesn’t make anything better it makes it worse, but It helps me feel better. I’m only human I make mistakes. I think about it, I regret it. Very much. One kiss lead me to fall in love for five months. And longer, but you’re no longer my muse. And It’s killing me. Anyone that knows me can tell I’m dying inside, I won’t talk to anyone, I always have tears in my eye’s. I just can’t go on without you. I’d do anything for you. I made a mistake I regret , and wish I could take it back without a doubt. See you one more time, feel you hug me one more time. Feel your hand fit so perfectly into mine, hold me one more time, especially kiss me And make me feel like I’m beyond cloud 9 one more time. I’m so sorry. I Can’t go on anymore.
Something that made me so happy, is yet so far away. #comeback #don’tgiveuponme #Ilovefromthebottomofmyheart.